August

I have chilled since my last post. Much less concerned with entertaining the troops round the clock. But I will say I have been a much better cook since Juncal's been here...and far more organized.
This might be the first August in a long time that I don't feel ready for school. I really don't. I actaully fear school right now. All of it's expectations - from the simple things like packing lunches to homework to balancing our lives again. I mean, let's face it...we are living a pretty sweet life right now. Play, sleep, swim, eat, watch TV, play and sleep. I can't even remember who showered when around here. I feel rushed when we have something to do in the morning even if it's at 11:00. So, 8/26 will come as a big wake up call to the Nicolls. I am not ready. I usually have "fall" clothes ready.....new gym shoes....hair cuts....fresh calenders and definitely first day outfits picked. I think mostly b/c I LOVE going back to school - at least I did as a kid. So I get my Yankee Macintosh Apple candle and fire up for school. But this year....not so much. I think I know better now. As a kid, school meant friends and life. As a mom of young ones, school meant a new adventure...a milestone. But as a mom of a 2nd and 4th grader, I know better. I know that it only gets harder every year. I know that the pace at which we move during the school year is not only exhausting but probably unhealthy. I know that the nights of movies and a relaxed dinner at 7 is over. I know that the weight of the world is about to fall onto my shoulders. Individual successes and failures, including my own, are the anchor of my job as "mom". So i guess I feel like I have been "off". So back to school means back to work...mom work. So we will see, maybe in a couple of weeks I will be ready to buy that Macintosh Apple candle....but for now, not so much...