Been A While

Well - it's been a while since I wrote. All have little colds in our house and Lily has an eye infection from a stye. Poor girl.
While at the Opthamologist's office he, of course, inquired as to why Lily didn't have her glasses on. I explained in code so she wouldn't clue in, that we are in the middle of a psychological battle that reaches beyond just her own insecurities but into my own as a cross eyed little girl with "coke bottled" glasses. I am sure he was like "hey chic - i am not really following this "code" talk and we don't really care if you were tortured by others as a child - GET YOUR KID TO WEAR HER GLASSES!". Seems easy enough right? I mean, if before I had kids, someone would have told me that their kid wasn't wearing their glasses I would say "tell them to wear them, no choice, no option - get tough and story over". But what I didn't know then is that I would birth a child that is complicated beyond my own understandings and patience and abilities. NOTHING is simple in Lil's world. So saying "wear your glasses or _______(fill in the blank)", She will always choose the 'fill in the blank'. And torture you along the way to boot. So when my mother or a teacher or a doctor says "why isn't she wearing her glasses" what I really want to say is "you know what - I don't know. Ask her I have no answers here. I solve problems all day and this is just one I can't do. I have no idea why she won't wear T shirts or things with pockets or pants that don't cover her shoes. I have no idea why she would rather screech, roll around on the ground and burst into tears instead of rationally discussing a problem. So the answer to the question is I don't know. Ask her therapist when she is all grown up and half blind."